Rest in Goodness

It's 8:33, and I should be asleep. My husband is/is trying even as I type this. But, I can't sleep just yet, and I haven't written in a while, so I decided to. 

Because, I am learning. So many things. 

August sucked. September, except for a few parts (like seeing one of my best friends get married/visiting one of my other very best friends) sucked. 

I've taken to memorizing scripture. Like it's a life line. Like it's my job, and well, it is. I've paid special attention to Philippians 4:8, and Matthew 6:34. Go look them up, I'm to lazy to type them out. I've been learning/been being taught that we are to take it one day at a time.

I can't control tomorrow, I can't control money, I can't control people, I can't control time, I can't control the president, I can't control some of the things my body has done, and I can't control situations. But, 

I can control me. 

I can control my thoughts and actions, and instead of dwelling on things that are negative and silly, I think about true and lovely and honorable things. Instead of worrying about tomorrow I remember that God is I Am, not I was or I will be. He's the God of Today. 

And you know, I have good days and bad days, but today was a good day. I was thinking last night about bills and people and food and how I'm going to buy groceries and what all I needed to do this week, but, today, I quieted myself. I thought about God's goodness and with a rational mind I thought about His faithfulness. 

And He proved to me that this is Truth. 

And I'm going to go to sleep soon, curl up next to my husband, and I'm going to truly rest in His goodness. 

For now friends, look at me and my husband being adorable. 

Because we are.

And I met a girl who's trying to start her own business and she took pictures of us and it was wonderful. And it was cute. And I love them. 

So look at our faces and smile, because we are. :)

Um, the water was cold.

  

Whatever Is Lovely

Good morning!

Today, I am adorable. I woke up giggly and woke my husband up giggly and giggled about one and million things already this morning. 

Good days are good. 

All things considered this past two weeks, with as many silly things that happened, there was a lot of good things. I've found encouragement, I've been honest, with myself, with others. I've laughed, I've made a few changes in my life. I've been brutally honest about why I want to make those changes. 

The husband and I go out. It's not that we're past the honeymoon stage, we just actually enjoy the company of others now. And it's the company of good people. Like this kids 18 birthday:

He's a cool kid. His family is pretty awesome to. Spending that evening with his family and some other friends kinda made my week. We played Mad Libs. We laughed and ate pizza. We watched a three year old very bossily tell people where they should be hiding, and laughed when she told who was going to count. 

 Why does this world think that we need to drink and smoke and do all sorts of other detrimental stuff to have fun? I had fun. There was no smoking, no drinking, just honest fun. The type of fun where you play hide and seek with a three year old. The type of fun where she finds a bug and carries it around and wants to show EVERYONE where she found it. Don't get me wrong, I'm over 21, every now and again, I have a drink. But the people I hang out with don't have to be drunk to have an awesome time. I'm just reflecting on a time in my life where that wasn't true...

I wrote this blog post in my head at three thirty this morning. I feel like there was something more profound that I wanted to say, some big revelation that would shock and awe you. 

But the truth is that I woke up in a good mood this morning, and have been hanging around good people most of the week and that's helped me. 

Support comes in such funny ways. People who I didn't even know came out of the woodwork to encourage, support and love on me and my husband. And even in those moments (which I still have) where I don't know what we're doing, how we'll buy groceries, or I'm tired of waking up (again) at three, I remember those people. And it really does make me smile. 

This is the verse I'm dwelling on this week, one that was mentioned to me this Sunday:

Philippians 4:8

Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.