The Night Before

It is the night before my wedding.

There is no more planning, no more crafting, no more no mores, we are all done with that it's the real deal. I am exhausted. I have had goofy dreams about not having enough food, about getting roasted by a spit, and about people being angry at me for having to move tables. I almost had a mental break down today, but was saved by my big sisters, my mother, and some truly amazing friends, not to mention my Beloved, who knows that sometimes, I freak out, but in the end, I will be ok. I repainted my nails, drove all over creation, made my mother sob, and my Daddy shed a tear or two, and it's not even the real deal people.

I am Blessed. I will never forget the way that people rallied around me to help me get things done, the joy on their faces to help me organize tables and the friends who showed up to help even when they didn't need to.

I will miss being my Daddy's girl, the oldest one who lives at home in the basement, and I will miss randomly stopping to talk to my Mommy. It is bittersweet, all of this, but so amazing, because when I walk down the aisle tomorrow, I'll be walking towards the most amazing man that I have ever met and who I love so very much.

So I say goodnight, for the last time, as Madalynn Ruth Carrigan, because the next time I write to you all, I will be Madalynn Ruth Jaques.

I have never been so excited in all my life. :)