The End of October

I spent my Halloween seeing one of my best friends give birth to a beautiful baby Boy, his name is Jack. We're calling him Jack the Pumpkin King. He is amazing. It was amazing. I have pictures. I started October seeing a baby be born, and ended it with seeing a baby being born. Amazing doesn't even...it's amazing, though that word doesn't do it justice. Someone (my mother...and whoever YOUR mother is) went through all that mess for you. It's hard work, I will never take it for granted, never again. 

Meet Jack, he's like 12 hours old. :)

I also spent today fighting and being mad at my intended for something idiotic. Much plays into this, hormones, and bad memories (a year ago, I got drunk with a guy, a bad guy, and as stupid with him in my car in the back woods of Virginia...). It is hard for us right now, to be so close, and feel so far away from what we truly want. Honestly, it's not about sex (we haven't slept together yet, we chose to wait)(which is the best choice for us...and honestly, for most people, even if they don't know it) it's all about sleeping next to him, seeing him off to work, cooking breakfast, and dinner, do laundry...and dishes. I like those simple domestic things, and I like doing them for him. I can't just yet, it wrecks havoc on us, both of us. We know what we are waiting for, and we are trusting in that hope. 

But in the end, it was a wonderful day, and I am happy, and I am blessed, and I am tired. Good night all, Happy 31st of October. I hope some y'all got some candy, and the other half of you smiled more than thrice this day!