Diego the Durango

I pray every day. I pray differently from most people, every day. See, I feel like when I pray out loud, in just talking, I don't really communicate enough with the Lord. So I write out my prayers. I like to journal and write, it's a hobby, and it helps me think and it helps me organize my thoughts. Today, I was praying for Trust.

I don't feel that I trust the Lord enough. I don't think that I listen to Him fully, that when others look at me they say, "Maddie, oh yes, she trusts the Lord." It's hard for me. I worry and I think, and my "I'm just being wise" becomes "I'm shattered by fear, and can't move at all."

So today, the Lord taught me about Trust.

He said, Go Buy This Car.

Seriously, here's what happened. My loving and adorable Fiancee texted me this morning that there was was a Durango at the bottom our mountain, at the end of our road. I should look at Durango's online and see if I even liked them. I did. I thought it might be to big an SUV for me. I passed this car on my way to work, and thought nothing more of it, until said adorable fiancee texted me again that the price was right and could I come take it for a drive/look into it more? Well, I was freaked the crap out, but went, I did.

And I ended up buying a car today.

A little background for why this was a lesson in trust...in list form!

• I've been looking into getting a new car for some time now...as in months...
• I ALWAYS get worked up over the car thing. I never felt like it was right.
• I really wanted to impress my father with my knowledge and choice of vehicle. 
• I never thought it would happen.
• Really what it comes down to was, does God REALLY care about me needing a new car.

In Matthew Jesus tells us that he cares for the birds in the air, the lilies in the valley, and we are MUCH more important to him than those things. He says, "Why should you care about what you wear or eat? Does not your Heavenly Father provide clothes for you? Does He not provide food for you?" (paraphrased people, Matthew chapter six, go read for yourself!) While re-reading this for the seven thousandth time, I inserted "Doesn't God know you need a car, hmmm Madalynn?" 

So trusting my heavenly Father, and trusting my earthly Father, and my wonderful future husband, I decided to buy this car. 

It runs, it's old, and has a lot of miles, but it is mine. And I am thankful. And I know my Lord...He cares, even about a girl who needs a car.

This is my Crazy Face.