Secondly, tomorrow I'm going to start taking pictures for a wedding! I'm pretty excited about it, even if sometimes I get worried that people won't like my pictures. I'm gonna get over this, one day...maybe...somehow.
Thirdly, this weekend has been, you know, a weekend. To try and sum it up I would have to quote the parable of the Mustard Seed. Because this has been on my mind all weekend, and normally when that happens, it means that God is working on something in me.
The mustard seed. A tiny little itty bitty seed that Jesus says is just the right amount. Right! Right? What!? I get so mad at myself because I just don't think that my faith is big enough. I start to think about all these great people I admire, and their faith, my husband, my mom, my dad, my big brothers, their wives, and they all seem to have so much faith. Oh I know they struggle and they have things, but in my head it's never the way that I struggle.
Did you know, every month I think, "we won't be able to pay our bills". Every month. Add to this that we are still looking for a place to live and we are still trying to sell and get rid of a car that was a big huge bad mistake. And every month, God sends someone to calm me down, to remind me that He IS God and that I WILL be taken care of. Every month we pay ALL our bills and every month we are fine. At the end of every month, I think "Wow Lord, look what you have done!" You would think that I would have this rock solid awesome faith right? Well...some days I do.
When I was thinking about that mustard seed all I could think was that it was a seed. Seeds have to tended to, cared for, soil selected, sun shine needed. All these things go into making a simple seed grow.
There are days when I am spending time in the Word and praying and dwelling on the things of God. There are days when I wake up late and cranky and don't and that seed that I'm supposed to be taking care of does not grow. Do you see where I'm going with this?
I've just been thinking about it all weekend. What have you been thinking about?
And since I always post pictures, now would be a good time to talk about how my Beloved was gone for the most part this weekend (except that he got to come home last night and be home all day today!) and I spent a lot of time with my family.
My Dad always finds these really neat places, and I'm glad that I get to go with him sometimes. This time he took us all out to Williamsport Maryland where you can see some of the C&O Canal, it's a neat place, you should check it out. It was nice to spend the day with my Mom and Sisters and my Dad.
I like that he takes us places that are real, that have history behind them and are interesting. Here's this old broken down bridge and we think it's awesome, because, well, it is. I hope that I carry that with my for the rest of my life. That I find interesting old places and take my kids for picnics and to explore, spending time together.
As much as I'm like my Momma, I'm a lot like my Daddy too. I like these old places and the things that have that can teach us things. I like going to new places that aren't new at all, but have been around for years. My Dad is a cool guy, and every day that I'm married I thank the Good Lord that I found someone like him. Even today my Husband did something so like my Father that it infuriated me. If girls pick men like their Daddies, then shoot, I had the best role model ever, despite his faults and failures. :)
We all had a good time together, as well as a goofy one. I'm not sure how, but every time I'm with the Carrigan side of things, we get a little out of hand. Now, I'm not gonna explain this picture, but please accept it for what it is, and be thankful that you have a picture of me.
This was the hanging vine everyone took a turn swinging on. When we had all our kids at home and raising them, I was not home very much and there simply was not enough paycheck left at the end of the month to do things with. So we would always try to do things outside that cost little or nothing. I know all the older kids have some memories of such so I want to make sure the younger ones do too. Thank You Lord for a Godly daughter who still values time with her family.
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