The End Of The Week

So what started as a pretty poopy week ended up being pretty good. Ok it was more than good, it's been nice.

After this Monday and my one day of feeling pretty awful, things have been better. It was just a really bad day for me. Some days are. I don't feel the need to try to hide those days or act like they aren't happening. I would like to think that I can see the end, and don't sound TOO fussy, but still.

Best thing about this week is that Daddy got to feel our Ellie girl! I've been waiting for this ever since I've started to feel her move. I was so excited! And the look on his face...my goodness gracious. It was...it is one of the memories that I will hold onto.

I can't deny how hard things have been. I get really excited about how well I'm doing, so it makes those bad days even harder. I think to myself "I was better, I'm all better, I can do better now." It makes me sad. Those days like that. So when good things happen, I grab onto them with both fists and hold on with all my might.

I was determined that no one would be able to feel her until her Daddy felt her. His face lit up, he giggled like a little boy, and it was just beautiful. I would be lying if I told you I didn't cry. I did. We've...we've both had such a hard time with this pregnancy. To feel this little life inside of me move and wiggle and grow makes all the more real and all the more exciting. We love our girl. We love her so much. Fiercely and wonderfully and we are so thankful for this gift. I can't get over the fact that I am STILL pregnant. I am STILL carrying this life. I am STILL preparing to raise a little girl to love Jesus, love her family, love her friends, and love this beautiful life that she has been given. I can't help, even on my worst days, think how lucky I am, because there are still woman who are not afforded this blessing.

There was loads of snow here too, where we are. It's the kind of snow I like because people don't make fun of me for being a chicken, because NO ONE can go anywhere either. I kinda helped shovel snow. It was fun! Blair didn't let me do much, and a neighbor made fun of me when I told him that I was wearing four pairs of pants. When I told him that I was almost six months pregnant he laughed and said "Oh fine then." I sat in the snow and made a snow baby. We tried to get a picture but my card wasn't in my camera, so we had to try again. In between getting the card, I killed the snow baby. :) Let's hope we don't do that for real when Ellie makes an appearance.

After I smashed Snow Baby. 

It's been nice to get to spend so much time with my Husband. We really do enjoy one another's company, and getting to spend the day with him was awesome. We had plans to decorate more baby onsies (pictures will come eventually, I had a lot of fun with them!) but that didn't happen. However, I will share this adorable picture of my husband and I.

And these pictures of things I have crafted for the smallish human that I have cooking.

I also got to see my mother in law and little sister in laws yesterday, they also are planning Owl crafts for our Ellie girl, which I'm pretty excited about. It was so cute to sit with them and plan and talk and pick out colors for the different owls (there is going to be more than one you know!). It was also fun to talk with my mother in law, because at the end of April we are moving in with them. It's a big step for them and us, and we could use the prayers as we all adjust. But it will be nice to be around family who loves and supports us, as well as having the opportunity to save lots of dollars.

I've also been shopping with my Mommy/Doula! We get really excited over baby clothes, it's a problem. We're trying to figure out which stroller/car seat system I like the best, and I have to admit to being a little picky about it. She's also coming to our next Midwife appointment to hear Ellie's heartbeat! I'm super excited about that for Grammy/because she's my Mommy/she's also my Doula. We also started birthing classes which I'm super excited about (this weeks class was cancelled because of Stormageddon!) and Mommy is coming to that class too after our appointment!

See, for as many bad days I have (and as bad as bad gets) I have more good days, and the bigger my belly grows, the more excited I get!

Tomorrow is Valentine's Day, and we're not gonna do much (that I know of........>.>) because we normally don't. Our first V Day together, he had strep, so we ate Burger King and watched Tangled. Last year was so crazy with Wedding planning (almost at a year!!!!) but he made me a lovely dinner and got me Daisy's. This year, I would be content with snuggles and soda. Why soda? Because it makes Ellie Girl super hyper, and we can both lay in bed and feel her. :)